自主地选择

路是自主的选择，没有无奈之说。

Raine的一个好友在广州自杀了。听说这个朋友离婚后，就长期患有抑郁症，试图自杀过几次。这次终于成了冷冰冰的现实，让她的内心颇为震动。看着她的遗体被火化的那一瞬，Raine觉得生命很渺小，就这么化做烟尘。就在她自杀前几分钟，Raine还接到她的电话，但是没有丝毫察觉。在MSN的交谈中，Raine一遍又一遍的悔恨自己，怎么就没有察觉？那是她多好的一个朋友啊！我只能安慰：“路都是自己选择的，没有别人逼的”。

人在面临一切痛苦的时候都有多种选择，每一种选择在客观上都不是最佳，在主观上都是最符合自己的心性。选择相信，选择怀疑；选择坚定，选择放弃；选择复合，选择决裂；选择躲藏，选择释放；选择笑，选择哭；选择活下去，选择死去......一切选择，皆为自主。

突然想起年少时读的一首诗， The Road Not Taken (by Robert Frost)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

每一个选择终有结果。